Friday, October 28, 2005
:: pfsh ::
Greg told me to stop complaining to him and complain some where where no one willr ead it, my blog.
oh, by the way, he broke up with me, he said he was lying to himself by saying he loved me
nice? eh?
yeah, I thought so too
I need to loose weight. it's funny how stress will make you lose weight though
I've lost almost 6 lbs since Monday, and it's onmly thrusday.
I'm relaly depressed
I cut on Tuesday.
I stopped cutting two years ago because Greg convinced me not to, and I decided that I wasn't for that emo shit.
I hate myself for it
I'm a bitch
I really hate it when my mom gets on my back about how I need to work out
she calls me fat a lot
no one knows but it makes me cry
a lot.
Greg broke up with me on Monday night, when I called him to tell him how much I love him.
I finally decided to put effort into calming down about clingging to him
I missed two days of school because I was crying to hard to go
isn't that pathetic?
I don't like guys, I don't like them at all.
I like girls better but not that much
I don't really think I could ever love any one cept Greg
he doesn't want to love me back though
that hurts a lot
don't ever do that to your girlfriend or boyfriend or what ever.
unless if you like them loathing them selves
in which case you should get them help, or help them, not hurt them
I like crappy 90's music, what the fuck?
I made a vow to my friend JO to not drink ever again
I haven't.
her part was to not bite her nails
she hasn't either.
I'm proud of her.
has any one read this?? if you have, give me a hug next time chu see me, or leave a message in the shout box saying something nice.
I have a crush on one of my friends, and she'd think I was crazy if I told her so.
I've been hoping that I'd just go into a coma for the next four years lately.
it'd be nice.
I'd wake up, retarded, but older.
I hope that I die before my friends because I couldn't live with out them.
if one of my friends died, I wouldn't be able to handle it
my friend Missy's brother, grandma, and friend died, all in one year.
my dad died when I was in the 6th grade.
so did my grandfather
last thing I said to my grandfather when he was alive was I hate you, because you are mean to my mum
I was eight
he didn't know my name
last time I saw my dad alive, he was playing with my dog, andie.
we were having a fight.
I had a band concert the night before he died
If there's a heaven then he's probably looking at me saying she's going to fuck up even worse next time.
I wonder if there's a heaven
I hope there is, I dotn' want to rot in the ground when I die
that would suck
my dad probably hates what I've become
a lot of people do
Greg probably wants me to drop dead because I won't stop bothering him
it was mean to break up with me
it really hurt me
I want to curl up and go into a long coma right about now.
as long as I come back from it
I'm scared of dying
there's a dance tomorrow, I dont' want to go
I have to though
because if I dont' then it will be awesome
this way every one else has a rotten time too
I wonder if any one will read this...
I'm going to go sleep
maybe Ill go into a coma...
+ Giselle Lenolle updated @ 10/28/2005 12:02:00 AM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
:: yeah shit happens. ::
god, stuff's been going crazy lately. x.x most of you knwo why... x.x my boyfriend broke up with me it really sucks. and now my mom's yelling at me jesus christ it's driving me crazy. x.x i'll just... go.. be emo... and lesbian or something XD (god I needa delete this)
+ Giselle Lenolle updated @ 10/27/2005 09:44:00 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
:: happy blog birthday to you, happy blog birthday to you!! ::
yay blog birthday, I will extend on this later. yay fillers!
okay. even if it's like... a week and a half late. Here's my blog's happy birthday update. O.o. I almost made it a cake, but decided that I should just celebrate it... by being lazy... and celebrating the internet all day. O.o so... I did that. I sat around on the internet all day long. yay internet! ^.^!~ anyways...
Breaking news:
Cheese
That is all.
+ Giselle Lenolle updated @ 10/08/2005 12:01:00 AM