:: pfsh ::

Greg told me to stop complaining to him and complain some where where no one willr ead it, my blog.

oh, by the way, he broke up with me, he said he was lying to himself by saying he loved me

nice? eh?

yeah, I thought so too

I need to loose weight. it's funny how stress will make you lose weight though

I've lost almost 6 lbs since Monday, and it's onmly thrusday.

I'm relaly depressed

I cut on Tuesday.

I stopped cutting two years ago because Greg convinced me not to, and I decided that I wasn't for that emo shit.

I hate myself for it

I'm a bitch

I really hate it when my mom gets on my back about how I need to work out

she calls me fat a lot

no one knows but it makes me cry

a lot.

Greg broke up with me on Monday night, when I called him to tell him how much I love him.

I finally decided to put effort into calming down about clingging to him

I missed two days of school because I was crying to hard to go

isn't that pathetic?

I don't like guys, I don't like them at all.

I like girls better but not that much

I don't really think I could ever love any one cept Greg

he doesn't want to love me back though

that hurts a lot

don't ever do that to your girlfriend or boyfriend or what ever.

unless if you like them loathing them selves

in which case you should get them help, or help them, not hurt them

I like crappy 90's music, what the fuck?

I made a vow to my friend JO to not drink ever again

I haven't.

her part was to not bite her nails

she hasn't either.

I'm proud of her.

has any one read this?? if you have, give me a hug next time chu see me, or leave a message in the shout box saying something nice.

I have a crush on one of my friends, and she'd think I was crazy if I told her so.

I've been hoping that I'd just go into a coma for the next four years lately.

it'd be nice.

I'd wake up, retarded, but older.

I hope that I die before my friends because I couldn't live with out them.

if one of my friends died, I wouldn't be able to handle it

my friend Missy's brother, grandma, and friend died, all in one year.

my dad died when I was in the 6th grade.

so did my grandfather

last thing I said to my grandfather when he was alive was I hate you, because you are mean to my mum

I was eight

he didn't know my name

last time I saw my dad alive, he was playing with my dog, andie.

we were having a fight.

I had a band concert the night before he died

If there's a heaven then he's probably looking at me saying she's going to fuck up even worse next time.

I wonder if there's a heaven

I hope there is, I dotn' want to rot in the ground when I die

that would suck

my dad probably hates what I've become

a lot of people do

Greg probably wants me to drop dead because I won't stop bothering him

it was mean to break up with me

it really hurt me

I want to curl up and go into a long coma right about now.

as long as I come back from it

I'm scared of dying

there's a dance tomorrow, I dont' want to go

I have to though

because if I dont' then it will be awesome

this way every one else has a rotten time too

I wonder if any one will read this...

I'm going to go sleep

maybe Ill go into a coma...

+ Giselle Lenolle updated @ 10/28/2005 12:02:00 AM

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